Mothers Day…Joy or Sorrow

Mother’s Day…unfortunately a holiday that can bring much joy to some can bring much sorrow to others…

for the women whose arms are empty because she is struggling with infertility…

for the woman who has known the joy of a positive pregnancy test only for it to end in miscarriage….

for the mom who has lost a child far too soon…

for the woman who has lost her own mother…

for the woman who never had a safe, loving relationship with her mother…

for the woman who thought her only choice was an abortion…

for the woman who gave up her baby for adoption…

for the single girl who has always longed to be a mother and isn’t yet…

for the single mom who just maybe wants a little help on this parenting journey…

for the woman who has lived a lot of life and never saw her dream of having her own children come to pass…

for the mom whose child doesn’t speak to her anymore…

My heart breaks for all of you. I have friends in each of these categories and I am myself in the “longing to be a mother” category. In Romans 12:15 it says, “Rejoice with those who rejoice {sharing other’s joy} and weep with those who weep {sharing other’s grief}.”

And today I do that…I rejoice with all the moms and moms to be. I’m so thankful and joyful that God has and is answering that prayer. I pray blessings over you, your spouse, your current and future children. May God give you the grace and wisdom to steward them so that “when they are old they will not depart from it.” Proverbs 22:6

But today I also weep with those who weep. To the ones who find themselves in one of the aforementioned scenarios I want you to know that my heart hurts for you. I know its hard to walk into church today and see the cute mother’s day photo-booth…to see the matching outfits…to see the handmade crafts from children’s church.

I want you to know that God sees your pain…not only does He see it, but His heart hurts for you personally as well. In Psalm 56:8 it says, “You’ve kept track of all my wandering and my weeping. You’ve stored my many tears in your bottle-not one will be lost.”

So today instead of comparing our lives with others; may we take stock of the many blessings we do have. Good health, peace, church family, husband, friends, etc. Let’s choose to have a mother’s heart for the children of this world that are hurting. Let’s choose to have a mother’s heart for the young mother that is frazzled day after day. Let’s have a mother’s heart for the “baby” Christian that needs shepherding.

I don’t say any of this to lessen the pain, sorrow, or grief that you may feel. Not at all…there is a time for that.

But lets look to be daughters to the daughterless. Let’s look to be mothers to the motherless. Invite those people into your raw spaces and grief.

And I pray and hope that today you may know…that even though you may not be a mother in the traditional sense there are many ways you can be a “mother” to those around you.

So today I say, HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!!!!!

P.S. I wrote this post in my journal before leaving for church this morning…little did I know what God had for me there. See below…(as posted on my facebook page)

“Feeling undeservedly blessed today. Today I woke up feeling really emotional. 1st, I hate being away from my mom on mother’s day and 2nd, my heart’s desire has always been to be a mom, and I’m not yet (in the traditional sense). To be honest…I thought about skipping church today. But God…
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I walked into the service and Pastor @kendallrhatley and @rachaelhatley got up to welcome everyone. Then they said they were going to recognize a few people. The first one they said isn’t a mom yet, but see if you can guess from the video. They then proceed to play the video and up pops the Nelson family with beautiful words to say about me. And then the Pastors said beautiful and uplifting things as well and presented me with beautiful flowers and a card from my Woodlake family.

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Once again I am in complete awe of God, and how He sees me and not only sees me BUT makes sure I KNOW that I am seen. I am so privileged to be able to “mother” many kids both at my church and in my classroom. I may not have carried them, but they are my precious babies, and I love them.

So thank you to my church family for loving me and allowing the Lord to use you to bless me. It means more than you will EVER know.

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Walkout Thoughts

There are so many emotions rolling through my head at the moment. The last 2 weeks has out me on roller-coaster of emotions.

This is my 6th year of teaching, and I can honestly tell you that I never imagined I would be part of a state wide teacher walkout. Never in my wildest dreams. But, whether I wanted to or not school districts were closing, and I was going to step in with both feet and advocate for my students.

April 2nd came and the day dawned cold…so very cold, but still myself and multiple teacher friends got up and boarded a bus to head to OKC to rally at the Capitol. I must admit that I was nervous and excited all in the same breath. I am not one for confrontation…AT ALL…but I want what is best for my students and that includes funding education in Oklahoma.

That day at the capitol we were greeted by sound bites of different representatives telling us to get back in the classroom and “do our job”, by people posting on facebook that we should all be fired,  and by representatives telling us “they had done all they could do”.

The next 2 days I was a on a street corner holding a sign raising awareness or the need for sustainable education funding for our public schools in Oklahoma. Then Thursday and Friday I spent at the Capitol attempting to speak to representatives. Some representatives were helpful and others closed their doors…it was disheartening to say the least…to fight for something you believe in so much and to have others not understand is hard.

Then came the weekend…I worked my 2nd job and then decided to join the march on Sunday. For 3 days I watched teachers come together from all across Oklahoma to walk for our kids. I watched teachers lose toenails, I watched them sleep on mats in gyms and libraries, I watched them have giant blisters/multiple blisters treated each night and then get up the next morning to continue walking. But you know what I never heard…I NEVER heard a discussion about our teacher pay. I NEVER heard a discussion about what teachers deserve. Everywhere I looked teachers talked about their struggles in the classroom. They talked about their students. They talked about missing their students. They talked about education funding so their students could have the best possible education. I was inspired and in awe.

Fast forward to today…in a couple of days I will get to see my 23 precious babies again that I haven’t seen in over 14 days. I am equal parts excited and sad. Excited because I missed their smiles and hugs. Excited to continue to teach them. Sad because I have to look them in the eye and  feel like I didn’t accomplish everything I wanted to for them. Sad because we still have people “representing” us that DO NOT have the education of our children first and foremost in their minds. BUT, this is not over…

It is far from over.  In the words of Admiral Isoroku Yamamoto in regards to the attack on Pearl Harbor, “I fear all we have done is to awaken a sleeping giant and fill him with a terrible resolve.” We are not going away. I am not going away. I will continue to email. I will continue to call. I will actively campaign for those that are pro-education. This teacher is not going away….I will continue to do what is in the best interests of both my students and the state of Oklahoma.

So all that to say…I am a bundle of emotions today over what was and was not accomplished at the Capitol. BUT, teachers, families, and community members have been mobilized. A record number of candidates filed to run for office this week. A historic increase on GPT was passed when they said it was impossible. Year 2 and 3 will still need to be funded, and I will do my best to make sure that they are!

Thank you to those that supported me through words and deeds. You will never know the difference it made. I pray God blesses you back exponentially!

Serving…Especially when in a Painful Season

I’ve been thinking about this topic for awhile, and its one that I believe many Christians avoid. Not because we don’t all walk through seasons like this, but because many of us are afraid to admit it.

If you were raised like I was then you might have heard the term, “fake it till you make it” or “put your big girl panties on and deal with it”. And while I believe there is some validity to those statements I think the worst thing we can do when walking through a painful season is to close ourselves off from Godly counsel and God himself.

At the end of October of 2015 I was put into a situation that made my life for the next 9 months very unsettling and unstable. I was angry. I was hurt. I was confused. I was devastated. I was fearful. It felt as if the world I had carefully constructed had fallen down around me just like the walls of Jericho…only I wasn’t feeling victorious. BUT…you’ll notice I said “I had carefully constructed”. I am a firm believer that although God does not cause evil in our lives, He allows it for our good and his glory according to Romans 8:28.

Anyway…the night I received that news I was scheduled to serve at my church’s Halloween outreach. I cried the entire way there and was still crying when I entered the church. Let me stop here and express how thankful I am for my church…many people loved on me, hugged me, and prayed over me that night and in the coming months.

That night I was in the room monitoring the game “Hungry Hippos”. All I wanted to do was be the one to start and stop the music for the game. One friend in particular let me have my several hours of the on the outskirts serving, but then she pushed me (literally) into the middle of the game we were monitoring with the kids. And do you know…I needed to push my own pain and hurt aside and serve…and in the midst of that and the coming 9 months I learned some things about serving…especially when you’re in pain.

1. God honors our service

I could have chosen to skip serving that night…most people probably wouldn’t have blamed me, but I did it anyway. I showed up to be a blessing to others. Oh, trust me…its not because I’m amazing or because I’m super spiritual. I just knew I needed to be with people that loved me and supported me and could lift my arms when I couldn’t seem to. And do you know…that very next day I received an answer to prayer for the situation I found myself in. I truly believe that God would have provided whether I had served or not, however I tried to honor Him in my service, and He longs to take care of His children.

2. Serving changes who I am

Serving takes the focus of me and puts it onto others. I forget that I am hurting (at least for a bit), I forget that I have needs that need to be met, I forget about my pain and focus on someone else. Even when Jesus was tired or hungry He had compassion on the crowds…He took care of them (feeding of the 5 thousand). I am convinced that Jesus does His best work when we are in such a painful place, and we choose to serve His people…His precious daughters and sons whom He loves just as much as He loves us. My parents always taught me that when I am hurting to pray for others instead of myself…I learned so much more about myself and the character of God in those 9 months than I had in the year prior to that.

Jesus leads us and that can be in several different places as Psalm 23 suggests…the valley of the shadow of death, the still waters, or to lie down in green pastures. Those are all vastly different places…BUT it says Jesus is there in the midst of us. He is incapable of forgetting about his children. Isaiah 49:16 says, “See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands..” Jesus is there…and because He is there I can run to Him in the middle of pain, in the midst of the valley of shadow of death and HE IS THERE!!! And because He is there, I know I am safe. And because I know I am safe I can take my eyes off my pain and turn my eyes towards helping others.

DISCLAIMER….I am not saying this is easy…its a process, and I still don’t have it down pat.

3. Painful times are not about me…its about others seeing the greatness of Jesus in me

Nothing that I experience in this life is about me. Everything is about Jesus and people seeing Him at work in my life. When I can walk through a hurtful, devastating, painful season and still have joy, peace, strength, and to serve with a smile on my face that has NOTHING to do with me. That has EVERYTHING to do with the Jesus on the inside of me! It says in Revelation 12:11 “And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony;” I could not have continued to serve, let alone with a smile on my face if I didn’t have faith in Jesus. God is faithful…it says in Philippians 1:6 that “being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” That is powerful…Jesus will do it…I just have to be faithful to do as He has asked. People…a hurt, lost, hurting, hopeless, dying world needs to see Christians living in joy no matter our circumstances. They need our testimony…they need to hear what the Jesus on the inside of us has carried us through!

In conclusion…I realize that there are many people that have suffered far worse times in their lives than I have. However, may I humbly suggest that you go to the Lord in the middle of your pain and ask how He would use you. It may be to provide a meal for a new mom, it may to greet at the door of your church, it may be to clean out your closet and give it to goodwill, or it may be to provide school supplies to a classroom in need.

I promise you that God is with you. He sees your tears. He is for you. But, I also promise you that you will gain so much when you can set aside your pain and serve someone else. God has a funny way of meeting needs you didn’t even know you had while you are serving.

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This is the picture of me the night my world fell apart…I never want to forget how God carried me through that night and beyond. Jesus was there, and I was able to serve even when on the inside I was broken. 

Ruth

So…long time no write friends…

Seriously…its been awhile.

Things have been crazy the last several months. Between the end of school, going home to see my family, summer school starting, and my best friend’s wedding next week there has been a lot to do!

BUT…in all that I have found such sweet moments with the Lord. There are many verses in the Bible about seeking after the Lord such as…

Proverbs 8:17 “I love those who love me, and those who seek me diligently find me.”

I can honestly say (being practically born in a church) that I have had periods of my life where I searched or sought harder than others. However, I really believe that although we may go through hilltop and valley moments in our walks with the Lord, He can truly give us an earnest desire to still seek after Him, and The BEAUTIFUL thing is that according to Proverbs 8:17 if we seek Him diligently we will find Him.

Anyway needless to say the last month or so I have definitely noticed that the Lord is wooing me…its not audibly, but more of a desire to seek out His word and study it…not just read it.

DISCLAIMER: I don’t say this to pat myself on my back, but to encourage others….ask and God will do it…but we have to ask. He wants it to be our choice.

So all this to say…the last several days I have been learning and studying the book of Ruth (which is one of my favorites).  But not only have I been reading the First 5 app for their daily devotion on Ruth, but using the Blue Letter Bible app as well to read study guides and commentaries on the book as well. IT HAS BLOWN MY MIND!!!

There is so much cultural and historical significance in this book of the Bible, and if we relegate ourselves to just reading the text in a 5 minute devotion we are going to miss the richness and beauty of this book and its place in the beautiful redemption of mankind by Jesus.  DISCLAIMER…IF ALL YOU CAN DO IS 5 MINUTES OF DEVOTIONS..DO IT!!! GOD WILL HONOR THAT!

So on to the book of Ruth. I read a study guide by David Guzik and commentaries by Matthew Henry on each chapter of Ruth and just filled the pages of my journal and to be honest I am still processing many of the things I read. But here are some of the nuggets that stood out to me and blessed me and I hope they will bless you as well.

  1. Ruth was not sitting around and bemoaning her fate being a childless widow in a foreign nation. She stood up and went to work gathering food for herself and Naomi.
  2. Even though Ruth was allowed by Levitical law to gather wheat among those working she did so with a humble and servant attitude. And because of that attitude she found something several things in Boaz’s field…not knowing yet that Boaz was her family’s kinsman redeemer. (companionship, protection, and refreshment)…hmmm…sounds a bit like what we find in our kinsman redeemer, Jesus.
  3. The role of a kinsman redeemer was to safeguard the persons, posterity, and property of the family.
  4. As kinsman redeemer Boaz could have forced himself onto Ruth because it was his right, but he didn’t. He waited until Ruth desired it…again what an amazingly accurate picture of Jesus as our kinsman redeemer.

There are many more things that I could share with you, but suffice to say my heart is so excited. I have heard before that Boaz is a embodiment of Jesus as our kinsman redeemer, but I didn’t know the cultural significance of a kinsman redeemer’s job, and knowing that makes the role of Jesus as my kinsman redeemer even more amazing, humbling, and beautiful.

More than ever I want to be a woman of character, virtue, and humility like Ruth…even Boaz and the neighborhood noticed! Check out chapters 2 and 3 of Ruth! More than ever I am determined to look at Jesus as my kinsman redeemer. More than ever I am convinced that the wait is worth it…settling will only lead to heartache. We don’t know how long Ruth waited…we don’t know how long Ruth gleaned in the fields. But we do know that once Ruth spoke up to Boaz, he did not way to make her his…what a beautiful picture of Jesus making us His. He does not tarry….as soon as I call out to Him I am His and He is mine.

This is a picture of a earthly marriage as well. Boaz was a man that had a good and virtuous character so therefore Ruth did not have a problem submitting. On the flip side Ruth was a woman of virtue, character, and respected Boaz  so he had no problem treating her with kindness and respect.

Like I said…I encourage you, search out the Lord…He is waiting for you. Search out commentaries, books, or study guides and the Bible (that is alive and active) will truly become that for you.

Have a blessed day!

 

 

Its okay to not be okay…

Does anyone else go through seasons where you feel as if you have lost your passion for life? Lost your motivation? Lost any kind of drive at all?

Its not a fun place to be is it? I recently watched a part of a sermon by Steven Furtick, pastor of Elevation church. This sermon described the place between where we were and where we are going as the “middle”. As I watched it I felt tears in my eyes because that is where so many people (myself included) get stuck. We have moved past where we were or who we used to be, but haven’t quite made it to the next “season” yet. His next statement BLEW me away. The grace of God that brought me to the “middle” is the same grace that will enable me to keep stepping towards the next thing.

Think about that for a minute. The “middle” could also be described as the wilderness, a mess, our mistakes, loneliness, chaos, process, change, a storm, etc. But this is a different way of seeing it. When you see that God is in the middle with you…in the middle of the mess, in the middle of this season where you feel alone, in the middle of the storm, in the middle of the process, it changes our focus if we allow it.

Now I am not going to sit here and pretend to be spiritual with you guys. This past year has been wonderful and hard all in the same breath. Wonderful because I have felt and seen the hand of God in my life, but hard because there have been significant changes in my life and the lives of friends around me. I’m a creature of habit…usually it takes God pushing me out into the middle or gap to get me moving. I tend to want to stay in what is familiar and what is safe. I insulate my heart so that it can’t be broken or damaged (been there and done that…have the t-shirt in fact).

But I am learning that safe doesn’t always work. God is calling me to a level of vulnerability with Him and with others. Its time to take the focus off of myself and what is happening in my life and put it onto others that are hurting or don’t have the hope of Jesus to rely on.  As my pastor talked about at church today we need others around us in order to be growing. Growth doesn’t happen in an insulated heart…it takes being vulnerable, it takes letting people know that you’re not okay, it means letting people know that you’re in the “middle” and that its hard…that life is tough at the moment.

I think its okay to not be okay. To realize that you can’t do it alone…nor were we ever asked to in this life. God doesn’t promise an easy life, but He does promise to be beside us as we walk through this life. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My loving-kindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.”

Think about that…Webster’s dictionary defines grace as “unmerited divine assistance given humans..” We don’t deserve it, but God has said His grace is sufficient. Its enough…its MORE than enough. We just need to simply latch on to it and never let go. God’s strength is made perfect when we realize how ineffective and weak we truly are in comparison to the mighty God that we serve.

Don’t let your weaknesses, struggles, addictions, etc. burden your heart. Of course deal with them…find an accountability partner, confess, see a counselor…whatever it is you need to do. BUT, GOD….BUT, GOD. He shows His strength in the middle of our weakness…in spite of it God shows up and God shows off! You never know…the thing that puts tears in your eyes today, that you haven’t told another living soul you’re dealing with could be the very thing that God uses to show His power to someone else and bring them into the family of God.

Again…its okay to not be okay. Its okay to be struggling in that “middle” place. But precious friend as I myself am feeling stuck in a “middle” place…

I encourage you to reach for the Lord. Psalm 46

I encourage you to reach for His grace. 2. Cor. 12:9

I encourage you to reach for His strength. 2. Cor. 12:9

I encourage you to reach for His promises. Luke 1:45

I encourage you to reach out to those men and women of God in your life. Prov. 11:14

I encourage you to stay focused on Him and not the things swirling around. Matt. 14:22-33

I encourage you to speak out truth (God’s Word) over your life. Prov. 18:21

I encourage you stand firm, and when you’ve done all else to keep standing. Eph. 6:13

I am praying for you…God has not forgotten you. He isn’t capable of it. Deuteronomy 31: 6 says, “ Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble in dread before them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not fail you or abandon you.” and Isaiah 49:16 says, “Indeed, I have inscribed [a picture of] you on the [a]palms of My hands;
Your city walls [Zion] are continually before Me.”

My God isn’t capable of forgetting about me or you…We are continually before Him. He sees us in this place and He has not left us alone. He is walking through it with us….whether we ever see or hear Him.

And who knows…your “middle” could become one of the most beautiful times with the Lord and become a “rock pile” (like Jacob), a remembrance of God’s strength, grace, protection, and provision.

 

 

Deal With Your Mess

So several weeks ago I was hosting my wing in my apartment for a movie night!! Lots of fun right?!?!? Yes, it was, but due to a busy week I did not get to come home and clean like i wanted so things ended up being thrown in the closet and on the other side of the bed.

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my mess….
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my other mess

Anyway, as you can see its not the worst mess, BUT it is definitely a mess. As I woke up the next day and started to clean I felt like the Lord was trying to show/teach me something. Our lives may look beautiful, clean, pristine, and perfect from the outside BUT in reality waiting just around the corner or behind a closed door is a MESS that needs to be taken care of.

That got me to thinking…how many times do we put on a face to the outside world when inside we are hurting, holding onto baggage, or in addiction? We put on a brave face when inside we feel dirty, ashamed, guilty, out of control, and etc.

Well ladies one thing the Lord has taught me as I deal with my own, personal messes is that His grace is sufficient…His grace is sooooo sufficient! Does that mean I don’t have to do my part? Or make good, Godly choices? No…I still have to step forward into the unknown and trust God, and trust in His healing process.

I have to let go of the tightly held mess that I hold onto because it feels safe and normal and allow the Lord’s grace, healing power, and comforting presence to come through and permeate every area of my life. I am working on this process and I think we all need to work through the process. I was watching Elevation church’s Code Orange Revival and Christine Caine was speaking. She made a wonderful point. She said, “Unless you deal with your yesterday, TODAY…there will be no tomorrow!!!

Don’t wait, but deal with it TODAY!!! If we keep putting things off then we may put off God’s blessings and God’s voice in our lives. Its time we step into the fullness of the life that God has called us to. That doesn’t mean hard times and it certainly doesn’t mean pain, but it does mean that God will be right by my side as I stand on firm ground whole and healed! I am taking this to heart and asking God to continue to shine a light on those areas of my life that need to be fixed and healed. I encourage you to do the same.

Remember that your story may be the story someone else needs to hear someday!

 

 

The Holding Pattern…is it worth it?!?!

Have you ever found yourself in what seemed like a holding pattern? You know the type of holding pattern when you are on your way home for Christmas, but the plane cannot land yet so its just endlessly circling?!?!?!? If you are anything like me then you find holding patterns an unnecessary evil in life. I could honestly live without them if I had my way, BUT Jesus has taught me something about the holding patterns of life.

Oh, I could say that I now LOVE when I’m in a holding pattern, but that would be lying. I still don’t like them, BUT I have come to see the necessity of them. For the last several years on my birthday I have really asked the Lord for a scripture that would help set the tone for the following year. On my 26th birthday it was Luke 1:45 AMP “And blessed [spiritually fortunate and favored by God] is she who believed and confidently trusted that there would be a fulfillment of the things that were spoken to her [by the angel sent] from the Lord.” Man, did I ever have to cling to that scripture with both hands!

Let me back up a bit. When I moved back to Oklahoma the goal was to either have my own apartment or to room with a friend. Well, because of student loans and the fact that teachers don’t make very much money my options were limited. However, God provided a nice place to live within my budget. November of 2015 I moved out of that place and began a HOLDING PATTERN season of my life.  In the natural nothing seemed to be adding up, nothing seemed to be moving, it just felt like I kept circling.

BUT GOD…BUT GOD in all His infinite wisdom, grace, and mercy allowed me to walk through that season to learn several things.

  1. Waiting is and can be painful…

There is no magic formula or time period listed and there are tears, anger, and more during the waiting process…embrace it. God is big enough for your tears and anger. He already knows what you are thinking and feeling so TELL Him.

2. Waiting is and can be frustrating…

Oh, I would love to say that I clung to Jesus during this time and never let my temper or attitude get the best of me, BUT that would not be the truth. There were days where it seemed all I could do was get out of bed and put a robotic smile on my face. BUT JESUS was there even then…He never left my side. He sent me little reminders of His promises and His love.

Example: December of 2015 I wanted to go to Rhema lights, but no one else was available or they didn’t want to go. Well, its not as much fun to go by yourself, but I did it anyway. I found myself tearing up as I saw the cute, happy couples so in love, the beautiful little kids tugging on their parent’s hands to go faster, and the groups of friends laughing. I asked the Lord to show me His love…oh I “know” He loves me, but sometimes I need reminded. I was leaving so I had to go back over the lighted bridge. Well needless to say it was CROWDED (think Friday night)  and EVERYONE was stopping to take a picture. I was determined to keep a good attitude…well all of the sudden the song “Believe” came on by Josh Groban. Guys, its one of my favorite contemporary Christmas songs. Because of the traffic on the bridge I stood there and was able to listen to the entire song. I felt as if God had wrapped His arms around me and was holding on so tightly. I may not have had that same experience without the holding pattern season of life.

3. But…waiting is and can be beautiful and necessary

I don’t believe that I would be the same women writing this post today if I hadn’t experienced this holding pattern specifically and many others in my life. Throughout the last 9 months I have experienced God as my provider. I have experienced God as my comforter. I have experienced His tender mercies and little love notes as never before. I have grown stronger in my faith. I have grown bolder in speaking the Word over my life. I have become more aware of the devil’s schemes.

Throughout this season women from my church have wrapped me in their arms and stood for me when I felt I couldn’t. These same women have been on their knees in prayer for me. These women have spoken life into me. These women have pointed me back to Jesus because He is a good, good Father.

I don’t know what season you are walking through today, but know this GOD IS FAITHFUL. GOD IS A GOD OF RESTORATION AND HEALING. GOD IS WORKING AS THE PLANE IS CIRCLING.  

I never thought that I would be settled in a place that I could call my own (really didn’t think I could afford it). I never thought I would get to decorate it just the way I wanted. I never thought I would get to be a wing backer for ORU and invite girls over.  BUT, I’m here to tell you that God has provided each of these desires and has fulfilled them. I am sitting in MY apartment writing this today. I am looking at MY decorations hanging from the wall. I am planning for MY ORU wing of girls to come over for a movie night this weekend.

I can’t say it enough…GOD IS SO FAITHFUL…even when I am not!!! I will leave you with this, although I could continue to tell you story after story! 26 was a year of me letting God have the dreams I was holding so tightly clenched in my fists, AND believing that He would fulfill them.

On my 27th birthday I believe the Lord spoke Ecclesiastes 3:11 (AMP) to my spirit, “ He has made everything beautiful and appropriate in its time. He has also planted eternity [a sense of divine purpose] in the human heart [a mysterious longing which nothing under the sun can satisfy, except God]—yet man cannot find out (comprehend, grasp) what God has done (His overall plan) from the beginning to the end.”  There is a plan…there is a divine time schedule. God may have you or me in a holding pattern because the time is not appropriate. God only makes beautiful things, but He does it in HIS time. Don’t rush the process…there are beautiful things that God wants to show us and perfect in us.

I would love to pray for you if you find yourself going through a holding pattern in life. Leave a comment below.

 

Hello world!

Hello, I am starting a new blog. i suppose you might call this a lifestyle blog considering it will be a collection of hodgepodge posts about my classroom, my journey to become healthier, and what I’m learning spiritually. Mainly its my attempt at trying to help or minister to even just one person. Hopefully you’ll stop by to read, and if not that’s okay too.