Have you ever found yourself in what seemed like a holding pattern? You know the type of holding pattern when you are on your way home for Christmas, but the plane cannot land yet so its just endlessly circling?!?!?!? If you are anything like me then you find holding patterns an unnecessary evil in life. I could honestly live without them if I had my way, BUT Jesus has taught me something about the holding patterns of life.
Oh, I could say that I now LOVE when I’m in a holding pattern, but that would be lying. I still don’t like them, BUT I have come to see the necessity of them. For the last several years on my birthday I have really asked the Lord for a scripture that would help set the tone for the following year. On my 26th birthday it was Luke 1:45 AMP “And blessed [spiritually fortunate and favored by God] is she who believed and confidently trusted that there would be a fulfillment of the things that were spoken to her [by the angel sent] from the Lord.” Man, did I ever have to cling to that scripture with both hands!
Let me back up a bit. When I moved back to Oklahoma the goal was to either have my own apartment or to room with a friend. Well, because of student loans and the fact that teachers don’t make very much money my options were limited. However, God provided a nice place to live within my budget. November of 2015 I moved out of that place and began a HOLDING PATTERN season of my life. In the natural nothing seemed to be adding up, nothing seemed to be moving, it just felt like I kept circling.
BUT GOD…BUT GOD in all His infinite wisdom, grace, and mercy allowed me to walk through that season to learn several things.
- Waiting is and can be painful…
There is no magic formula or time period listed and there are tears, anger, and more during the waiting process…embrace it. God is big enough for your tears and anger. He already knows what you are thinking and feeling so TELL Him.
2. Waiting is and can be frustrating…
Oh, I would love to say that I clung to Jesus during this time and never let my temper or attitude get the best of me, BUT that would not be the truth. There were days where it seemed all I could do was get out of bed and put a robotic smile on my face. BUT JESUS was there even then…He never left my side. He sent me little reminders of His promises and His love.
Example: December of 2015 I wanted to go to Rhema lights, but no one else was available or they didn’t want to go. Well, its not as much fun to go by yourself, but I did it anyway. I found myself tearing up as I saw the cute, happy couples so in love, the beautiful little kids tugging on their parent’s hands to go faster, and the groups of friends laughing. I asked the Lord to show me His love…oh I “know” He loves me, but sometimes I need reminded. I was leaving so I had to go back over the lighted bridge. Well needless to say it was CROWDED (think Friday night) and EVERYONE was stopping to take a picture. I was determined to keep a good attitude…well all of the sudden the song “Believe” came on by Josh Groban. Guys, its one of my favorite contemporary Christmas songs. Because of the traffic on the bridge I stood there and was able to listen to the entire song. I felt as if God had wrapped His arms around me and was holding on so tightly. I may not have had that same experience without the holding pattern season of life.
3. But…waiting is and can be beautiful and necessary
I don’t believe that I would be the same women writing this post today if I hadn’t experienced this holding pattern specifically and many others in my life. Throughout the last 9 months I have experienced God as my provider. I have experienced God as my comforter. I have experienced His tender mercies and little love notes as never before. I have grown stronger in my faith. I have grown bolder in speaking the Word over my life. I have become more aware of the devil’s schemes.
Throughout this season women from my church have wrapped me in their arms and stood for me when I felt I couldn’t. These same women have been on their knees in prayer for me. These women have spoken life into me. These women have pointed me back to Jesus because He is a good, good Father.
I don’t know what season you are walking through today, but know this GOD IS FAITHFUL. GOD IS A GOD OF RESTORATION AND HEALING. GOD IS WORKING AS THE PLANE IS CIRCLING.
I never thought that I would be settled in a place that I could call my own (really didn’t think I could afford it). I never thought I would get to decorate it just the way I wanted. I never thought I would get to be a wing backer for ORU and invite girls over. BUT, I’m here to tell you that God has provided each of these desires and has fulfilled them. I am sitting in MY apartment writing this today. I am looking at MY decorations hanging from the wall. I am planning for MY ORU wing of girls to come over for a movie night this weekend.
I can’t say it enough…GOD IS SO FAITHFUL…even when I am not!!! I will leave you with this, although I could continue to tell you story after story! 26 was a year of me letting God have the dreams I was holding so tightly clenched in my fists, AND believing that He would fulfill them.
On my 27th birthday I believe the Lord spoke Ecclesiastes 3:11 (AMP) to my spirit, “ He has made everything beautiful and appropriate in its time. He has also planted eternity [a sense of divine purpose] in the human heart [a mysterious longing which nothing under the sun can satisfy, except God]—yet man cannot find out (comprehend, grasp) what God has done (His overall plan) from the beginning to the end.” There is a plan…there is a divine time schedule. God may have you or me in a holding pattern because the time is not appropriate. God only makes beautiful things, but He does it in HIS time. Don’t rush the process…there are beautiful things that God wants to show us and perfect in us.
I would love to pray for you if you find yourself going through a holding pattern in life. Leave a comment below.